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I deleted All of my nudes/photos of you from my phone finally. Don’t flip out, I’m not at your level & I’m not going to post them to the internet. After you forced me to suffer through this, after everything I’ve been through physically & mentally, heartache has had the biggest impact. I wanted to marry you. I wanted to spend my life with you. I wanted to make you a mother. I wanted to buy you a home one day. I wanted to be buried by your side.
Don’t you dare ever approach me in person, saying how you ‘love me’ or ’ I’m sorry’ or ‘please’ because I begged you to stay. While you left like the breeze does. All your crap is off my walls. The only thing of yours I still have on is this anklet you made. & that’s only because it’s my favorite colors. Not because I want you. I loved you so good Rachel. Yes we had our disagreements every couple does. But you chose the absolute worst time to make the choices you did. Think about that the next time I see you & don’t say
A word. I don’t even want to look at you, nor will I acknowledge anything you say. I’m so ashamed by you, I was telling everyone how beautiful, sweet, silly, caring, loving & a cute girlfriend you were, you’re the two years of my life that I’ll never get back. I hope you’re happy now. The minute you decided lying, leading me on, giving out your number, or allowing another guy to hit on you without saying ” I have a boyfriend ” is the day you stopped being my girlfriend.

"All the hardest, coldest people you meet were once as soft as water. And that’s the tragedy of living."

- Iain S. Thomas, I Wrote This For You  (via fawun)

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liamfx:

staff at checkout: that’ll be $9.95
me: here’s $10.00
me: keep the change 
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impactings:

today my professor told me
every cell in our entire body
is destroyed and replaced
every seven years.

how comforting it is to know
one day i will have a body
you will have never touched.

Re-blogging this Every time i see it.

"You have to keep choosing recovery, over and over and over again. You have to make that choice 5-6 times each day. You have to make that choice even when you really don’t want to. It’s not a single choice, and it’s not easy."

Without you.

I really fucking miss you Rachel. I hate my life without her in it. It’s gotten to the point now where I feel like if I would’ve died in that car crash. She wouldn’t have been affected at all. She openly told me ” I was losing my feelings for you even before the crash. ” it breaks my heart to know I wanted to marry you. & you never felt that way for me. I know we’ve had our disagreements, but you chose the absolute worst time to play the cards you did. You know what you did. Between giving out your number before leaving. To leading me on with false hope & promises. Imagine if you were where I am. Just for a second. I guess you can’t & that’s why you feel no remorse, no sympathy, no shame. I loved you the best that I could. What I could do I did. What I couldn’t I tried.

Goodluck

Not only did you completely lie to my face about never leaving you had the nerve to be highly unfaithful, go find my replacement, lie about doing so. Give out your number when you were not available. & you had the nerve to ask me if I thought this was easy for you. You tried to make me feel like the bad person. When it was you. your choices, & your lust, your greed, yours alone. Why weren’t you honest with me. I never deserved to be lied to the way you lied to me. Good luck Rachel. Goodluck.